March 26, 2016, the day my personal blog was created. A day full of multiple emotions that my brain can’t process nor that my body can react to. For some time now I have began to question the people who surround me. I feel like I have been an incredible friend to those that I have befriended and have befriended me. However, why do I feel so lonely? I feel as if I don’t have any friends I can count on even if I haven’t done anything to them. Why is that? Am I doing something to push them away? Is my personality dull and uninteresting? I know-these questions sound foolish, but they are those who I am really asking myself.
I use to have so many friends when I was younger and now feel like if I don’t have none. I see all my friend hang around one another, but a ring never goes through my end. They never invite me nor mention things to me. I have figured that maybe it’s our stances on life and the things that we are doing. Although, many times these things only bother me for a moment, I can’t help, but think about the future.
- Who will be my maid of honor?
- Who will be invited to my wedding?
- Who will throw my Bachelorette party?
And all these other foolish questions that might go away tomorrow.
As I am figuring out how to end this, I feel like the protagonist of the show “Awkward”. haha